Nia

Because it will be so much greater later I know that now doesn't matter,
this is the peace of mind you find,
when you can ignore before and focus on after,
this isn't the next chapter;
it's a foot note to make feet move the right way,
an announcement of a coming event,
an invitation to save the day,
half way through the half way point,
two steps beyond the fork in the road,
a battle cry for peace,
a song to save my soul,
I can remember what hurt feels like,
this ain't that,
I paint prayers with my pen,
to better where I'm at,
Sometimes I feel trapped,
Freedom is a struggle,
I can always see the trouble,
blood, sweat, and tears in a puddle,
All I ever do is hustle,
Survive;
Pray for the souls of those who died,
Get lost in my own mind,
Wondering why it wasn't my time,
I saw a flat line in a dark room,
I remember thinking this is too soon,
please Lord not yet,
and he gave me more breaths,
He granted me more days, weeks, and months,
now I can't sleep, all I do is seek, and hunt,
Serve my God,
Try to raise boys to men,
Teach them in all they do,
first acknowledge him,
I give to be forgiven,
I live to a rhythm,
Whatever it takes to try and make a better place to raise kids in...